trip in terengganu ;))

i went back to KB for 14 days..i never been that long in kelantan..usually we stay here for about 4-5days only..then we went to terengganu as well since my sis got her mrsm interview in besut..sadly we just went to besut&&jerteh only..got no time to go to rantau panjang or kuala terengganu or even the taman tamadun islam..i'll back to KL tomorrow && back to labuan on 23rd..quite sad to leave KB..&& hate to think that im gonna register at uitm on this sunday..SHIT!

so for the conclusion

awal muharam detik permulaan..wee~ mmg biasany thn2 baru adlh saat2 paling aku suka sbb dpt bina hidup baru la konon nya..padahal setiap tahun pn sma ja perangai ni..sik pandei ubah2.. xtau la..... hmmmm tmenung seketika hahaha.. but 2007 until 2009 were'nt my years.. seriusly, ive been in a lots of troubles in these years.. mcm2 blku && ofcoz la trouble2 ini terjadi atas salahku sndri..bukan salah org lain.. im such a troublemaker to myself ;(( sooo farr last aku rsa btl2 bahagia when i was in form3.. bahagia sgt2.. almost in everything were perfect in that year.. then, kejatuhan demi kejatuhan menimpa diri ku..study..friends..family..religion..teenagers thingy..love?..&& more..hmm i mde lots of mistakes to myself..&& after out from kml, i mean for this time being, aku rasa sgt sgt sgt geram && dukacita..wlupn aku tidak luahkn kedukaanku d wajahku && aku pendam sja seorg dri && lepasknnya d blog.. namun, im serious abt it.. aku rsa im tooo much abt all this weaknesses,failures && whatsoever..now i really2 seriusly realize my weakness,mistakes && everything that lead for that kind of thing..i dont need to explain further for any of my past..xbaik aibkan diri sendiri but i think i have to do something.. something
that will change me for GOOD..to be a better person.. to prove that im not a useless girl or friend or daughter or student && to prove i am something..i know i can heal my bad memories && mistakes..its not that im not thankful of what ALLAH gave to me but i am jelous to persons who much better than me.. when i read magazines,novels, && read abt these people, i felt guilty,why cant i be like her..jealous in positive way i mean..they inspire me to change my bad attitude,bad thinking,bad prayer perfomance && bad achievement.. change everything that i have to change..i want to make my parents proud of me..people said that its never too late..so i have to burn the desire && put all things to the top now.So .uitm..KK..2010..1431 help me to change && prove to them!!that i'll be a new ayuni eleena one day..wait&&see ;)) bubye 2009

imperfection

SAYA MEMANG TIDAK PERFECT

&& SAYA TIDAK MEMILIH HANYA ORG YG
PERFECT UTK BERDAMPINGAN DGN SAYA

SAYA MUNGKIN SELALU TIDAK BERPUAS HATI DGN
ORG LAIN TETAPI TIDAK BERMAKSUD SAYA
TIDAK MELIHAT KEBURUKKAN DIRI SENDIRI
ATAU
TIDAK BERMAKSUD SAYA MENILAI ORG SESUKA HATI
SAYA TIDAK DAPAT PUASKN HATI SEMUA PIHAK
SEPERTIMANA ORG LAIN TIDAK DAPAT
MEMUASKN HATI SAYA
KITA SEMUA PERNAH BUAT SALAH
ADA YG JARANG2 BUAT SALAH
ADA YG SELALU BUAT SALAH
TETAPI,KITA TETAP SAMA
got our own strenghtness && weaknesses

congrats to aiku && cik nur

yay! finally i met the lucky girl in the world ever..!hehe here the story..i have a great good smart intelligent religious uncle,we call him,ayahku or in short aiku.. he inspire me all this while,since when i was in year6..he the one who inspire me to be a doctor && study in oversea..he is my uncle,brother,friend,teacher,doctor && more..he always lead me in EVERYTHING..&& im not ashamed to share anything with him..he is adorable in my family..now he still studying medic in russia,final year if not mistaken..


&& now he engaged with the lucky girl!! actually, his fiance IS NOT HIS SPECIAL GIRLFRIEND.. he never meet that girl,they never meet..even the engagement was held without him(which is ok btw)..our famiy recomanded cik nur to him..but ofcoz he still thinking && make his decission bout it besides discuss with family before the engagement day..he just see the girl's face in picture that we sent to him..cool huh?

wanita baik,untuk lelaki yg baik.. && vice versa

cik nur,his fiance is also a great muslimah..polite,soft,islamic&& sweet..she is lucky!!! i hope i will get the "same thing" as hers..insyaALLAH..unfortunately i cant attend their engagement coz i was in labuan..but i must attend && involve in his weding..MUST!

to aiku,congrats && i really hope you will happy in you life.. you deserve it!&& i hope i can be like you..amin..

ini bukan siti ini neelofa, cantik kan?

she is more beautiful in magazine

beauty with brain.. thats the best what can i describe her..she is the cover girl for WANITA mag,january2010 edition..she is 20..freaking pretty && gorgeous.. she was ex-mrsm langkawi && got straight A in upsr,pmr && spm.. great huh? suprisigly, she didnt take medic, she took something out of science field.. && she wants to be a model? huhu..she is confident,independent,classy,,bright && more.. you guys should read her story.. trust me she can inspire you..i wish i read about her earlier, so that i can be her type when i in her age..but its not too late then