we actually can figure out between good and bad. we knew which is good which isn't. and now we have to choose either one. some people chose good. some people tend to choose bad when they have something in mind or maybe they just get so excited. im not sure. meaning to say, we know what we have to do, we know what we shouldn't do. everybody has self empathy. you know, we can feel someone's feelings. we can put ourselves in their shoes. i believe everybody does. but i cant understand when someone who doesn't. i mean, duhh cant she/he thinks about other's feelings?
here's the story. when i realized that im a lover. easily to love everyone especially for those who are close to me. old friends new friends. friendship. has a special place in my heart. so im easily put trust in someone. when i have secrets, i tend to seek for those who i trust and share my secrets. expecting they to understand. expecting they to keep it to themselves. one day, something happened. something unexpected which hurt myself to the max. when someone who i trust at first, speak up my secret with no guilty. i was so upset. but i couldnt scold or show her that im mad. if possible, i dont want to talk with that person ever again. she lost my trust. she totally lost me. i cant believe she did that. no matter what her excuses are, i cant accept it. when i said, secret, when i said keep it to yourselves. when i said dont tell anyone, then that person should keep her fucking mouth to silent, no matter what happen. where is her responsiblity? what is she? too excited when she knew my secret? proud that she knew the fact? the weakness in me? immature.
i learnt some lessons. do not trust anyone. at all. keep your secret to yourselves. especially the TOP secret. do not easily love your friends. i mean, dont get too overwhelmed when suddenly you have new close friends. take it easy. afterall, friendship is just like relationship. it takes times. seriously. im very upset. i should practice to be more secretive after this. put limit and border. that person turned me.